Monday, October 20, 2008


Perhaps they
are not stars,
but openings in
the Heaven
where the love of
our lost ones
pours through
and shines upon us
to let us know
they are happy.

Friday, October 17, 2008

My first blog-be patient!

After way too may hours of trying to figure this blogging stuff out -here goes. ABOUT ME-I probably sounded like a rambling fool and my son Cody is sitting next to me playing "XBOX LIVE" and he says I look and sound like a fool watching a Packer game-yelling at the TV-he is not much better if fact-worse!!! My best friend in the whole wide world GERRI insisted I give this blogging a try-her Dr. suggested it to her. She said it would help me deal with day to day issues but most of all with my grief. ABOUT ME- I lost my daughter Siarra on July 2, 2005-just 17 years old-to be exact 3 wks after her 17th birthday. It has been a long 3 plus years. I miss
her so very much-a space in my heart that will never be filled. My son Cody 13 yrs now and driving me crazy(because raising boys is so much different than girls) was only 9 at the time. It absolutely devastated him. He and Siarra were very close-7 years apart but very close. It really sucks to be a only child-especially after it didn't start out that way. Their father and I are divorced and have been for 10 years. I have a wonderful fiance BRUCE who is my best friend GERRI'S husbands brother-if you can follow that. He never really knew Siarra-we started dating about 1 month after I lost Siarra-he is MY ANGEL ON EARTH!!!!! I believe Siarra sent him to me because right before her death I was in a 3 year relationship and not a good one. Needless to say, it ended two weeks after Siarra died. All she ever wanted was for mom to be happy. I am truely happy with Bruce -but what a precious price to pay. The real kicker is my best friend Gerri, her husband Jeff, their beautiful daughter Alyssa and my fiance Bruce all live in Sheboygan and I live in Wausau. There is so much to tell so many feelings to share-but my honey will be here soon so I need to go for now. I promise to post pictures of everyone soon-especially Siarra-she is absolutely beautiful-she was a dancer since age 3 and also sang like an angel-country being her favorite-don't know where she got that from? Oh, and before I forget my two precious kittens Gracie and Harley pets make a big difference when you are alone. Every other week Cody is at his dad's house. OK ,I really have to go!!!