EMOTIONALLY A MESS!

I am really missing my little Siarra this week-my heart feels very sad. Cody is with his dad this week we share him 50/50 (meaning he goes to dads on sunday at 6pm returns to me the following sunday at pm) this was the same when Siarra was still here. So, as you can imagine my weeks without Cody are very lonely-not quite as bad as right after losing Siarra-but still very hard. I went from having a daughter and son-to being alone when Cody is at his dads. Siarra would always come and visit me even when she was at dads house. I miss her just stopping by to say "hi" or go shopping or just visit. Another day I will talk about Todd-Siarra and Cody's dad-it is a very difficult situation-he is bi-polar, but we will save that for another time. I am not quite ready to go back to the day of Siarra's accident-it is very hard along with the 3 years of media coverage/lawyers/insurance companies and disappointments, but someday I will tell Siarra's story start to finish. So, just like you feel frustrations raising you children, one step forward and 3 steps back, I really do understand because we are all mothers, my steps are just a little different. Ok, I have really made a mess out of this post. Maybe it is because the holidays are right around the corner and that is never easy. I really really miss her!!!!